THE LAST CONVERSATION

She waived her hand towards us. I was going to waive but in a moment my friend responded to her wish. She looked; she smiled, turned away and in a moment was out of our sight.

I was enjoying our last days in college. When 4 years passed away, we didn’t even realize. Our group was celebrating those last days by staying together, parties, get together, picnic and whatever idea comes in any mind.

I, Shirish and Yatin were going to meet in GIP mall that day. We entered in the mall and started shopping, truly speaking window shopping because we were just having joining letters; job was still to start in a month. So we had a month to do actual shopping. Yatin noticed Krupa and asked me to meet her but I refused. She noticed us and waived her hand towards us, precisely towards Yatin. I guess it was a hint, and I made my mind to talk with her for the very last time.

She was my x-girl friend & my junior; I dumped her and didn’t want any one to have any grudge against me before I leave the college. We still continued to roam around that mall. I knew she also wanted the same; I was pretty much sure about her feelings.

I texted her

Hey, how r u????

Wanna meet u……

It was 2 years ago when I dumped her, deleted everything related to her, her messages, her no. even  but I still hadn’t forgotten her no.

After about 5 minutes I received a message and it was from her side       

I know she was pretending, I texted her again

Shalin this side….

In reply I got a message

Why you wanna meet me again?????

I replied

I don’t know, but still if you allow, I wanna talk to you for the very last time……. :’(

That smiley did worked and she replied me

I have to do some shopping and I will meet you after about an hour, I f you can manage for an hour then I will meet you near main entrance

For an hour I along with my friends went to food court, played games, and 1 hour just passed away in it. I explained the situation to Yatin and Shirish and asked them to have some fun there for some time till I have some chat with Krupa.

I waited for another 15 minutes after which she was there in front of me. She was along with her friend Shilpa, her classmate.

Shilpa: I have to leave Krupa now…

Krupa: why??? What happened? You were supposed to join me for another hour or so……

Shilpa: I got a call from mom and she said me to reach home as soon as possible. We are going to some marriage. So please don’t mind….. Even you have a very good company now (pointing towards me).

Krupa: yes, but ….. Any how do call me in evening. Wanna talk to you….. Bye sweetu… take care

Shilpa: bye take care

I felt as if conversation was pre decided, because I know Krupa very well she plays such kind of drama very well.

It was 2 years since we broke up and it all was due to her. She was engaged and I came to know about that thing long after we got committed. The only good thing about her was that she was very caring and all I dreamt during that time was to live with her forever but she betrayed me. She tried to apologize to me and even said that she will break that engaged for me but I refused. What is the guarantee that she will not break up with me if she can break a relation like engagement.

Me: hey. How’s you’ve been???

Krupa: Great and how are you????? You really wanted to talk to me?????

Me: I am fine and yes of course dear, these are my last days in here college so I don’t want to have any grudges between us.

Krupa: I don’t have any grudge against you dear

I know she had and she will not talk to me freely unless I give her proper time and attention

Me: are we gonna talk like this only????? I mean can we sit some where??????? How about CCD????

Krupa: sure…. But which one????? Here are 3 CCD’s

Me: I heard of 2….. Not 3

Krupa: 3

Me: 2

Krupa: you better bet on it……

Me: sure…… 500 Rs….done

She took me to the shopper stop and in a corner far inside it was a newly inaugurated branch of CCD there and I was totally unaware of that branch. All I could do was to give 500 Rs. Or pay for her coffee.

I chose coffee, a better option, I guess. That place was really in a remote type of area which no 1 could ever imagine, perfectly built for secret talks of lovers.

We seated there and I ordered for 2 hot coffees with doughnuts.  I wandered that something must have happen over it, remembering the tag line of CCD

A lot can happen over a coffee

Me: how’s your fiance????

Krupa: ummm…. He is fine absolutely. He recently visited Delhi here last week.

Me: hmmmm…. And how’s your family????? Your elder sister and younger brother????

Krupa: they are great

We exchanged some more formal talks asking each other about their life, family, studies etc.

I met her through our common friend 3 years ago. She was in first year and we met during fresher’s party given to them. I remembered each and every thing about her talks, birthday, her no., our fights, those sweet memories.

We finished with our coffee and she started explaining the story of her new friend (her new boy friend in fact) and his family to me, to which I was least interested.

I knew that boy from the right beginning; he was beaten up by me and my classmates for behaving rudely to me. And what he said to Krupa was that I was beaten up him. Why do boys have to become hero by saying false things to their girl friends, all they want is to impress them. But I rectified that thing with Krupa.

After having that conversation I paid for that sweet treat, as I had lost my bet worth Rs. 500. We came outside and caught an auto heading towards our college. Our college was about 12 kms from that mall, but still the closest one.

She started weeping there in auto. Woman sitting next to me started staring me, I ignored her.

Krupa: why Shalin??? Why you did this to me?????

Me: what I did???? What do you mean????? You know why I did this

Krupa: but you know how much I loved you…. And I was just going to tell you in a day or so

Me: yes I know but it was going to end some day with me, so I just ended it because I could not carry all along you with your fiance

Krupa: I would have left him. I even told my mother about you.

Me: why??? What was surety that you would have been with me and not him? If you can leave him after engaging then what is the guarantee that you would not have left me

Krupa: you know Shalin

Me: no, I really don’t know

She turned her face on other side, she was weeping. I knew she loved me from her bottom of her heart.

Her beautiful hairs were falling on my face and I wished it should go on for the entire life but it was not going to happen again.

Auto stopped in front of our college and after paying we went inside the college. She met my classmate Aman and started talking with him. I holded her hand and brought her other side.

Aman looked at me staring towards us as if I have stolen something form him.

Krupa: hey what happened??

Me: this is the last time I am talking to you and I am not going to talk to you ever again.

Krupa: yes, but I want to talk to you. I have lots of things to ask you, can I call you tonight?

I could not refuse her; even I wanted to talk with her.

Me: ok, but only one last time.

At 10 I received he call, and we talked for an hour asking each other about how their life went from last 2 years, discussing our memories and things related to us.

And suddenly she asked me

Krupa: do you love me?????

Me: you know my answer….

Krupa: did you ever love me?????

Me: yes I did love you even you knew this but you betrayed me….

Krupa: please don’t say this….. I can come back again

Me: it’s too late; I don’t want this thing to repeat again. You really broke my heart

Krupa: I am sorry but please……

Me: please don’t be….. It’s over now

Krupa: I really love you….

Me: even I loved you but I cannot happen again

Her voice hypnotized me or what it was I was not able to recognize. I was talking totally in her words.

Me: I love you Krupa, I want to hug you, kiss you, wanna make love with you…..

Krupa: I love you Shalin very much. I just wanna see you again for just one time. Can we meet tomorrow???? I promise I will never ever talk to you and not even try to meet you again.

Me: even I want to but for the very last time.

We talked for another 3 hours talking much similar stories and discussing things that went wrong.

I slept at 4 in the morning, after having longest call in my life.

I woke up in the morning and got ready for the college. I reached there at 9, I had viva for training, last exam of this 4 years, of this degree. But I was more excited to meet Krupa than giving my last viva.

After giving viva I texted her to meet me in new block. Our college had a newly built block where rarely a person go and that too was not from staff or student. The place was perfect to meet her.

She reached there in next 2 minutes and she was looking damn hot, might be that she just wore her new dress just for me. No words, no talks were shared, only we shook hands and were looking into each others eyes.

I holded her both hands tightly and brought her close to me. We could feel each others breathe and heart beat. I was out of my mind at that moment; all that was working was my heart. I hugged tightly as if I don’t want to leave her and I mind, my heart, soul was feeling just out of this materialistic world. We looked into each others eyes again without speaking even a word.

We brought face closer; our lips were just few milli-meters apart. Nobody was going to stop us, not even we ourselves. I brought my lips closer to her and within a moment her lips were on mine, it all was just flowing just as nobody cares what this world will think or do. We kissed each other, kissed as lovers meeting after a long departure, kissed for a minute. We saw each other again; our eyes were speaking with each other, as if they don’t want each other to go.They insisted us and we kissed again for that very last time…………….

Sh!t H@ppens...!!!!!

Rohit and Krishna was sitting in room in Dehradun and Rohit was quite depressed.

Krishna: what happened???????

Rohit: yaar, how should I tell you, I don’t whether to concentrate on what is going to happen next day or what has happened just with me?

Krishna: OK first of all tell me what happened??????

Rohit: OK listen……

6^th Nov, it was a different day for me. It was my 3^rd time that I was going to give SSB for Indian air force. Excited or confused or still not confident, I wasn’t able to depict what exactly I was feeling. But the day was really important for me. I was going for my dream job.

Amritsar-Haridwar Jan Shatabdi Express started from Amritsar at 7:20 am. The tag of Indian railways always makes the trains to run late from their exact time. Two of my classmates were also going for the same.

My plan was to go Haridwar before going to Dehradun so that I may get some blessings of Ganga Mata before attempting for the interview. I had to report at MCO, Dehradun at 0700 hrs so was having a plenty of time to take the holy dip in the river.

I reached Haridwar at around 2 pm and deposited the heavy luggage in the cloak room and went on the path to Har-Ki-Paudi. The street was crowded due to festival going on there of Janam Shatabdi Divas of Shanti Kunj and Kalash Yatra was going on. I went straight to the river bank for taking the holy dip and deposited the kit over there in a cloak room. I took holy dip in the water and felt so relaxed and good that I wanted to enjoy the dips as much as possible but due to shortage of time I came out of river and covered up myself with clothes. After having bath I went to visit some of the temples over there and visited the market. There so much hustle and bustle due to the festival going over there that even I heard that a day before 20 people died over there due to some violence.

After visiting the temples I decided to give a visit to the guest house built by the priest of my own city. I got the address of that guest house from some of the known and found it out near railway station. A person with a long white beard, long white hairs seeming to be around 75 years was sitting in the lobby of that area and to my surprise was smoking (first shock). I went near him and gave him respect by touching his feet.

Baba: yes????

Me: I came to visit the place, I am from Amritsar.

Baba: ok, you want a room?????

Me: no, I just wanted to visit the place around and to meet you

Baba: the room will get free in the evening, till then the rooms are full

(it appeared as if he was hard at listening)

Me: arey nai nai, I said that I just came to visit the place and I will not stay over here, I have to go to Dehradun this evening.

Baba: ok, bring that chair and have a seat

(I brought that chair and got seated on it)

Apart from me there were some more guests sitting over there who were there due to festival going over there.

Initially he asked me about my city and some more common talks about their temple over there. After some time he started to tell the story of the ancestors of their temple which I found interesting but due to his poor voice quality I lost the interest in that story but still kept on my facial expressions as if I was interested in listening.

After finishing the story he went to his room to make a call and after some time he called me in his room. The room was well furnished and appeared to be as a room of 3 star hotel. He offered me a cup of tea and kept on asking me about myself and what I was doing, and why I was going to Dehradun. I kept on answering his questions because my train from Haridwar to Dehradun was in the evening so I had to pass the time. After having talked about various topics he asked me to have a night stay there. I told him my plan and promised him that during my journey back to Amritsar I will stay there for 2 days. He agreed and ordered food for me; even I didn’t refuse because I was also hungry. I had the food and after having it I went to be seated near Baba ji. By his looks he appeared to be a well human being who is far away and not interested in “moh maya”. The moment I sat near him he started smoking again, I was so shocked to see him that a person like him can also do such things.

After finishing cigarette he went to his room and after few minutes he again called me to his room.

Baba: come this way I want to show you some thing

(Pointing towards the bathroom, he holded me from my arm and pulled me towards that bathroom)

Me: ok I will just see

Baba: look we have bathrooms like this in every room over here, aren’t they good??????

Me: yes they are good. Really amazing

Baba: why aren’t you staying here tonight?????

Me: actually…..

Baba: oh come on, ek raat ki hi to baat hai.

And within a moment he came closer to me. My heart started beating fast, I was facing such kind of situation for the very first time. His hands were on my shoulders and I was confused about what is going on.

Baba: why are you so scared????/

Me: it’s nothing like that but I don’t have that much time to stay.

Baba: buses will start from here in morning at 4 am. You need not to worry I will make sure that you reach there on time. Just stay in my room for this night and I am sure you will feel great.

(I was so much confused and puzzled about the situation that I was not getting a way out, but somehow I realized and handled the situation)

Me: Baba ji, I promise you that on my way back I will definitely stay for two nights.

Baba: sure??????

Me: of course Baba ji.

(the trick worked, I gave him greed of two nights instead of a single night)

Baba: ok then sit here near me, you still have one and a half hour for your train.

(I wanted to leave the situation and that place as soon as possible)

Me: I have to take my luggage from cloak room and have to complete the formalities to get my luggage so it will take time. It is better that I should leave on time.

Baba: but make sure you stay here on your way back

Me: definitely Baba ji

Before I could get out from my previous shock he stood up and hugged me so hard, giving me another shock. He started touching my body, moving his hands down on my thighs and then on my packs and finally targeting on place between my legs. My face got red, goose bumps appeared and I took step backward immediately. I wasn’t realizing that what has happened with me just a few minutes ago. I was realizing what he was talking to me before and what his main aim was. Those talks were still striking my mind. I touched his feet again not for showing respect again. Some people from there entered the room and I took the situation favorable for me to leave and within a moment I was out of that room as well as that guest house. My mind was not able to get back to what is going to happen next day but still was unable to resist the thoughts of what had happened just some moments ago.

Krishna: just try to forget it and concentrate on tomorrow. Now just sleep

I reached Dehradun that night. From that very moment I left that guest house everything went wrong. Train got late, next day I got screened out from SSB for 3^rd time, my dream got crushed.

My cell was showing me incoming call “Haridwar Baba G”, I didn’t picked it and deleted that number next moment also adding that number to my block list.

I wish I get out of this memory as soon as possible.