She LOVES me.... Not...!!!

 

First of all I would like to thank Almighty God for rewarding me with all his blessings, ever-loving parents, guides, friends and critics who all are responsible for guiding me on every hard and critical situation.

This story is a real and hard effort from my side to entertain my readers. lots of emotions and moments are joined with this story, so I personally feel that this story will be liked by everyone. For making this story worth reading I would like to thank my ever ready friend and the best critic Radhika Sharma. I would also like to thank Yogesh Sharma and please my apology to those who have appreciated me and made me write something for you.

My last but not least thank to my brother Puneet Salwan who tries to find those very silly mistakes in emotions that sometimes I forget. But I always follow a saying

Practice makes a man Perfect

Have a happy Reading.

Savpril Salwan

Dhruv: Where are you going mama ji???? It's so early... It's just 9 a.m.

Pawan: My dear son, it's 9 am and my work starts at 9 am. Don't worry!! You will also come to know about this 9 am dragon when you will start working.

I used to live with mama since last 3 years and 11 months in his flat in Mumbai. My house was in Pune but I used to study in Mumbai. My mama ji lived alone there in his 3 BHK flat in Vashi. So for me it was better option to live with him , accompany him and it also somehow made me feel comfortable, but in actual the major reason for living with him was my Mom's wish. She didn't want me to live in hostel.

Dhruv: By the way mama ji, you're 28, why don't you get married? What is the fun of saving so much money for someone who is not yet there in your life. And another reason.., I'm also leaving for USA next month, then  you will probably  feel alone and moreover it may take some time for me to come back . So it's better to get married first.

Mama ji(laughing): will consider your proposal soon. Now I'm getting late , your breakfast  is in box, get up and have some food first. Will see you in the evening. Bye take care.

Till then I was also out of my sleep, so got up, took bath and after having breakfast, went to college for my final exam.

I got placed in Microsoft while I was studying in my 7th smester and my job location was California. I recieved my joining letter just a week ago and was going to finish my exams in a week further. Within a month I was about to leave for USA  for my next journey ahead.

I came back home in the evening, and mama ji was preparing  the dinner. I went into my room and came back after getting fresh.

Pawan: You know what... There’s a surprise for you.. Guess what....!!!

Dhruv: Either you proposed a girl or a girl proposed you... Or what???

Pawan: Not so.... But quite similar to it.... Ok leave it, I'm going to call Didi.

Dhruv: Wait wait waiiittt.... You're getting married???? Are you serious???

Pawan(calling Shalini): Hello, Namastey Didi....... Yes I'm good and Dhruv is also good......... Yes he's doing well in exams.... Don't worry I will take care of him....... Now I just need a favour from you, if it's possible ......... Can you come here tomorrow morning ........ Actually the thing is .... A girls' parents for me......... Yes...Of course For marriage...... So if you can...... Yea, thank you..... Ok then see you in the morning and do bring Jija ji along with you.......  Bye tc.... Namastey (call ended).

Dhruv: Is it true????  Am I dreaming???? But how come so suddenly..???

Pawan: umm not suddenly, I was planning to tell all of you that we both like each other but as you said in the morning that you will be leaving in next month so I thought it would be the right time to tell everyone.

Dhruv : Great mama ji,.. It's time for celebration... Now we will dine outside.... Lets party.....!!!!

Next morning

I woke up early, and Mom was up there with dad to welcome the guests. I got ready for the day and helped mom in preparing food. We finished it at 10 am and started waiting for the guests. They were expected to arrive at 11 am. Suddenly my Mama ji got a phone call and he picked. Mama ji went outside to bring the guests upstairs. They entered, they were 3 people, as judged from the age, girl's mom and dad and she herself. I must say Mama ji' choice was so beautiful. I was looking if she had any younger sister. We offered them to be seated on sofa.

So everyone started to introduce each other and this way conversation started. The discussion kept on moving till lunch and after having lunch everyone was having smile on their face. Everyone was expecting a good news. So with a mutual concession everybody was ready for the marriage. And decided to do it as soon as possible.

So after that they went to an astrologer and finalised the date of marriage and that was just 2 days before I was leaving for USA.

Preparations started and I got done with final exams and finished my documentation and shopping for the trip. Everybody was happy and got busy in inviting relatives , then programmes, it all went bigger and bigger till the marriage arrived.

Marriage went on as expected, couple was looking beautiful together, and everyone was enjoying the evening. I wished both of them a beautiful future and wishing them luck for the coming life.

The next day I got busy with my stuff and preparations for my journey. Finally the day arrived and everybody was there to wish me luck. Mom started crying, so I told her that I was going to start a new life, so after great efforts she brought a smile on her face. I wished everyone and finally took a warm good bye from everyone.

So it started well and I kept on working hard in the organisation. I completed my post graduation there  and finally became team leader of a good project in Microsoft. How 7 years passed by, even I didn't know. It was time for me to come back to India for my next project there. So I started to pack up my stuff . And finally I was coming back from USA after 7 long years.

Everything was planned for me, my engagement, my Marriage, everything. And my beautiful partner was Akriti, my childhood friend. Even I was happy with all this. It just reminded me of mama ji.

Instead of going direct to home, I went to Mama ji's home. But no one was there, I asked the neighbours but they told me that he sold this flat 3 years back to some party.

From there I went for my home in Pune. Everybody was waiting for me and received a very warm welcome from everyone there, mom, dad, Akriti, and her parents. But no where I saw mama ji. But I didn't ask at that time. I was tired from the journey, so got fresh and went for a nap.

It was 12  noon next day when I woke up. Mom came into my room. I asked her about Mama ji, that where is he? How is he? How is everything?

Mom told me about him, how his life went on after me, how he faced problems in his life, how he got separated from his wife. I was shocked to hear that because neither of them told me anything about this thing. I was wandering where were their children. There were hell lot of questions in my mind but I needed answers from Mama ji. Mom told me that he will come on my ring ceremony.

Next day was my ring ceremony, and instead of getting curious to get engaged , I was curious to meet mama ji. After all I needed all those answers from him. The function started but I yet didn't see him. Rings got exchanged. Everybody started wishing and congratulating us. Finally I saw Mama ji coming in. He came towards me and we hugged each other. He started crying, and I also accompanied him. I told him that we are going out somewhere after this function.

After function got over , I took Mama ji to my friend's flat and brought a bottle of whisky for him. He made drinks for both of us. He started it and finished it in a second. He started from where I left him.

Pawan: After we came back from Kashmir, life became so beautiful. I felt as if now my life has got some meaning. As If I have reasons to live, to earn, to do something for her. Every day I used to go for work and come back home early, to spend time with her. I used to tell everything  to her, and she was always interested to listen to my every single word. She was totally my kind of girl. Seasons started passing like this. I did everything to make her happy; dinners in restaurants, picnics, movies, shopping, and everything else, did everything for her. And she was also happy for whatever I used to do for her. It was Christmas time and she was admitted in hospital, as we were expecting a baby. At around 6 in the morning a flower took birth on this heaven. I became father of a baby boy. I was so happy, and Deepshikha was also extremely happy. We named baby Deepak, derived from her mother's name. He brought happiness to our life. The life was moving so smoothly, but as you know there's always a darker side, or you can say there's always night after a day. Deepshikha went to her parents' home as a ritual was there to visit parents' home with the new born baby. She had to stay there for a week.

Dhruv: You have a child?? Where is he?? How is he??? I mean ....

I was so anxious to know everything in a second, but ...

Pawan: That also I will tell you. As she came back from her parents' home, I felt a change in her. She started ignoring me, didn't listen to me, started avoiding me. I didn't know why. Finally I said to her that I need to talk to her, but she said she din' t want to discuss anything. It continued for days and finally she talked to me. She said that she is not happy with me and when I asked her that why is she not, tell me the reason. She said that she want money, money to spend for her child, for herself. I said her that all that I had belonged to her,. What extra did she needs. And then she said that she needs 3 lakh rupees to get an FD for her child. Every time she said "her child" I was feeling as If I have lost something. I agreed to her and sold a part of ancestral land In nearby village and made an FD with the name of Deepak. She kept on talking with her parents for hours rather than caring for Deepak.I noticed this  many times but didn't said her anything, because I didn't want to have any problems in our relation.

Dhruv: Then what happened??? She said anything?? Any demand??? How went life then???

Pawan: Gap started increasing till I organised a surprise trip for her to Goa. I didn't tell anyone that we were going, not even her parents. I talked to her and sorted out the differences there. She was happy again and so do I. The trip left impressions on our life and she started to be as she was before the birth of Deepak. I was also happy for all of us. We got blessed with a baby girl. After 40 days she was to go to her parents' home but I was scared of sending her there, because last time also when she came back, she was changed. But even though I sent her as it was a ritual.

I was continuously  making  drinks for Mama ji. While telling his story, there was a spark in his eyes. His every expression, every single word showed love and affection for her, for his children.

Pawan: But this time unexpected happened. She didn't came back home. She said me that she will come back only when I will make an FD for her and her baby girl for Rs. 6 lakh. I was dumbstruck after listening to her demand. I was having only a single thought in my mind, that how to bring her back. I was left with only my flat as a property. I sold It for 20 lakhs and made a deposit of Rs. 10 lakh for her and Pawni, my baby girl. And asked her then to come back home, as I took a house on rent. I knew this was all her parents' plan. It was not her who was demanding but her parents. But again she denied to come back, as her new demand was that she will come back only If have my own house. And I was like, WTF was going on. I scolded her and her parents and disconnected phone. I was alone, I sold everything I had and was left with only 10 lakh rupees. But I wondered what was fun of that money If I don't have my family with me. I talked to her again explaining her my condition that I was left with only this money. She gave me an option, that I give her 5 lakh rupees and buy her parents' home for this. I was left with none but only option to say yes. I agreed to her and finally gave her 5 lakh rupees. But on the day I was to go to that house, she locked the door from inside and told me to go away now. Without making any issue of her in the society I went back quietly, as I was left with only that option. After that day I called her 100 times a day but she never picked my single call. I texted her, but she didn't replied. I tried to meet my children but she allowed me to meet them in the market only once in a month. Children were growing and I need them but her parents were in my way. I loved her and that was what led me to this condition. But even this didn't made me regret  for such condition because I knew that one day she will come to me. This way I spent my last 7 years with and without my children, with and without her. I really don't know what will happen in coming time, but I still hope that she will come back. Deepak and Pawni are growing and all I want is to give them good education and to spend my rest of life with my family.

3 bottles were lying empty there, and all of them were consumed by Mama ji  except a small glass that I took to accompany him.

Dhruv: I'm sorry about the situation.

Pawan: Why are you sorry?? Hey come on... It was nothing to do with you. It's still up, and she will come back definitely.

Dhruv: Don't worry Mama ji, I will talk to her tomorrow. You don't worry and take care of yourself. I need you and your family needs you. Don't hesitate while asking anything from me, and If you need anything, do tell me. I'm always there to help you.

Pawan: Sure, and thank you for your support.

Dhruv: Ohh shit!!! (looking towards mobile), Its 10 pm.... And 18 missed calls from home and Akriti. Ok now I will drop you to your room and will see tomorrow, It's getting late.

I called back and told Mom that I was  coming back in a short span. And on my way back to home, had a talk with Akriti, and told her about the conversation. She was quite mature in her decisions, she understands me very well. I reached home at 10:30 pm. Had dinner with Mom and Dad. They didn't ask me anything related to Mama ji and neither I told them anything. After having dinner, I went into my room and told everything about Mama ji to her. I asked her now what to do, and she suggested me to talk to Deepshikha regarding this situation and solve the issue as soon as possible. I agreed with her and decided to visit Deepshikha's home next morning. We wished good night to each other and slept.

Next morning I woke up and got ready for going to Mama ji's home. I reached there at around 11 am. I was calling Mama ji's mobile but he was not picking it up. It was neither his time to go anywhere, and even if he would have, he might had told me earlier. I went up to see his room. His room was locked from inside. But I was hearing noise of somebody's inside. He was moving something wooden, may be a stool. I knocked it once again, but no one replied. I knocked again, once, twice, thrice, again and again, but he didn't answered. I knocked neighbour's room, he opened and I requested him to use his window and told him that my Mama ji was not opening room's door and I was suspecting something wrong  inside. I ran towards window and he continued to open the door forcefully but in vain. I jumped across the window and entered Mama ji's room.......

Everything was silent, no one was there. And suddenly I looked upwards, he was hanging up there, with a rope around his neck and some papers in his hand. Neighbour broke the door, and now around 7-8 people were in the room, looking into situation. And I was looking towards him, he was no more. I took papers out of his hands and those were stamp papers over which there was written something in bold letters.... And It was Divorce papers. I didn’t take more time for me to understand why Mama ji did this to him. I looked around and there was one paper lying down there on which something was written in Mama ji's handwriting.

I love you because you bring the best out of me. I love whom, I have become since I have known you. Every time I look in your eyes, my heart misses a beat. I enjoy doing things with you and spending time with you. You are simply irresistible.

Sometimes I feel lost and out of touch, but when your there, I feel safe. Your voice soothes me. I could sit here and try to tell you just how I feel, only I can't find the words other than I am happy we met and have gotten together after all we've gone through.

You make me feel loved, you make me feel needed, but more importantly, you make me feel wanted. That is something that I hadn't felt in a very long time. We have slowly grown into a beautiful relationship that only you and I can understand.

You are a blessing that my entire being is very thankful for. I feel that we were made to love, listen, understand, and work through all times in our lives together, a truly rare gift.

We have both gone through so much in our lives; we've both been hurt and have lost trust in others, but I ask you to give me a chance. I don't ask for much, only for you to love me as I am and not to hurt me as I would not hurt you. I only wish to be by your side and with no one else.

From this moment on, we have each other and all the time to be in each other's arms. When I say I love you it is truly meant.

I love you, and will love you forever, I can't hate you and I don't even have time to hate you. The moment I hate you, I will be no more.

In love with you forever Deepshikha,

Pawan.

Love always,

Thanks

"Dhruv ... Dhruvv.... Get up... It's already 10 a.m. And you were going to meet Pawan also. Get up my boy."

 I got surprised that from where was mom shouting me to get up and neither was I sleeping. Suddenly a burst of water splash on my face and i was up, and everything was out of my eyes, there was neither any letter in my hand  nor Mama ji anywhere near me.

Then I realised that it was a damn bad dream.

Soon I went to Mama ji with mom and then to Deepshikha's home, where we resolved the matter and brought back her to Mama ji. I was so happy to see mama ji so cheered up after having her . 

Suddenly I saw my mobile ringing and Akriti's number was flashing on the screen.... I picked the call and someone from other side told me that she is missing from home since last night.........